Where is my worth?

 

*pretends no one noticed I didn't post last Wednesday*

Hallo! Today's post is on a topic I'm very passionate about: health. My health journey has been such a roller coaster and I've just started sharing more about it because I believe it is something that everyone struggles with at one point in their life. As I continue with my fitness journey, I'm reminded so many times of lessons about identity and worth. So today's post is reflecting on some of those thoughts! 

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Holding my breath, I waited. Waited for the numbers to register across the little screen and measure— my worth. They registered after a seemingly eternity of suspense and I released that breath which apparently didn’t do me any good to hold in. The numbers didn’t lie, but oh did
I believe the lie I thought they told about me. Those numbers screamed lies I too willingly believed. Lies that told me a little scale could measure my worth. They measured the level of effort I put into my health. They measured a lot more than they should have. And I let them. I wrote down those dreaded numbers and for a season, that person let herself be defined by them. Not anymore. 

Something I’ve been learning over the course of two years... when I place my worth and identity in myself (how well *I* do in college, how many friends *I* have, how *I* look, or what earthly things *I* have), I miss out on the freedom of walking in Joy. 

Sure, I might find happiness when the scale says I can be happy, but what happens if I’m disappointed in myself for not measuring up to my own standard? I might be happy when I get a good grade, but what happens when I get constructive criticism and start to doubt my ability? I might be happy when friends reach out, but what happens if they don’t? I might be happy when I buy something new, but what happens when the newness fades?

When I define myself by these things, the happiness is short term and dependent on my circumstances. 

What happens when I put my worth in who Jesus says I am? This!!!! This is where the Joy is found!!!! 

Who I am is not what the scale says I am. 
Who I am is not my grades.
Who I am is not how many friends I have. 
Who I am is not what things I own.

Do you want to know who I am? 

I am chosen. 
I am redeemed.
I am a child of God.
I am so so loved. 
I am fearfully & wonderfully made. 

This is who I am and my worth is not dependent on my performance, popularly, or possessions. (Sermon notes)

Next time you await the condemnation you know you’ll feel on those scales once those numbers teeter across the screen... try saying out loud, “I am a child of God and my worth is not defined by this number.” Speak the truth out loud and don’t allow the lies to tell you otherwise. 

Remember, scales are a tool. Not a means of measuring your worth!

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Do you want to see some more health related posts on this blog? Should I post more about working out, weight training, cardio, plant based lifestyle posts, etc? 

Comment below! 

Many Blessings, 

Brooklyne Elysse