Why, God?
Written by Brooklyne
"Why, God?"
"Why aren't you trusting Me?"
Two questions
One of pain and "Why's"
Full of confusion
The other a hard solution
Full of hope
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Everyone's "Why's" are different
But God's answering question is the same
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If you are so worried
If you are still hurting
If you don't understand
Even if you never will
Why aren't you trusting?
God wants us to trust Him even if we don't understand the "Why's." Our unanswered questions are answered, just with a question for us. Why aren't we trusting? This is a real struggle for me, but I am learning that in order to really find peace that surpasses all understanding throughout this turmoil, I need to really ask, seek and knock.
A few weeks ago, I was asking for peace. I would pray and pray but never felt peaceful in what I was going through. I thought I didn't know the right way to pray for peace, maybe I was doing it all wrong? No, I wasn't doing it all wrong, but I was missing something, though.
I would pray and then expect this peace to wash over me like I had heard in stories. But I was frustrated when I wasn't feeling peace.
I took a walk in the woods and sat by the creek, I told myself that I wasn't leaving until I had figured something out. I contemplated, "What is Peace?" To me, it is staying calm and feeling God's presence in all of the craziness of life.
While I was in the woods, I was listening to the sounds of nature. The creek, birds, trees in the breeze, etc. One sound interrupted the quietness of the woods, it was a woodpecker. The noise of him pecking on a tree was like knocking on a door. Instantly a bible verse came to me, and at that time, I had no idea how that bible verse would help me find the peace that I was looking for.
It was Matthew 7:7 "Ask, and it shall be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and the door shall be opened to you."
As a kid, I learned this verse as a song, and after hearing that bird, this song was stuck in my head. Now that day, I didn't quite figure much out, but a few day's later, I read a post on Sarah Keatts blog, One Name. Go here to read her post. The last few paragraphs really hit home and made me realize that what I was missing was the seeking Jesus part. I was asking, but not seeking. Now it makes since for me to have had that song stuck in my head.
I was putting all of my effort into asking and was disappointed, but now, I'm learning to ask AND seek Jesus in all of this. Because, Jesus is the Prince of Peace!
The last part of Matthew 7:7 is to knock, I see this as moving forward. I want to be able to take a step of faith and knock, even when I don't know if that door will open or close.
Instead of asking "Why?" I want to learn to be trusting in Him.
Do you catch yourself asking "Why?" a lot? Have you ever wondered how to really find peace that surpasses? What does Matthew 7:7 mean to you?? How can we stop worrying and start trusting?
Happy first of August! I hope that your summer has been a blast so far! It is still NOT over yet! *desperately holds on to summer for as long as possible*
July Camp Nano was awesome! And I made it to my 10,000 word count goal!!! Im so excited to see where this story takes me! :D Did you do Camp Nano? Have you read any awesome books lately?
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